'An Adventure'

My BFF recently suggested writing a blog about teaching, and about leaving my job at a free school, and my experiences finding a new job. I definitely want to write more, and thought this might be good practice and good for discipline. Worried that it would be self-indulgent, I was warned that I just have to be self-deprecating and not take myself too seriously. The first is easy, the latter more difficult;  it's a key component of the anxiety that I've been feeling on and off since I started my PGCE in 2010!

It is time to deal with my 'issues' to do with confidence and lack of behaviour management skills, and for some soul-searching about whether I want or am cut out to be a teacher in the first place.

Do I want to stay in teaching?

Over Christmas, I had a semi-big argument with my mum where she said it was really good  that  I was admitting to myself that I'm just not cut out for it. When considering quitting my job before the Christmas holidays, my boss said that I had to decide if I wanted it enough to persevere. Both of these observations annoyed me. My lovely mum was putting words in my mouth, my boss seemed to be working on the assumption that it's okay to feel horribly stressed and to have no work-life balance to speak of. But what if they're right? What on earth will I do that's not teaching? (Those home-made cards for etsy won't sell themselves.)

Watch this space...